Chula Vista Civic Library. It’s 3:45 p.m. and I’m sitting right next to a window overlooking a quaint park, attempting to study for my first exam of my last semester of college.
Aside from obvious procrastination, I felt compelled to write a post, although I doubt anyone will actually read it.
I haven’t been active on Tumblr for the longest time; the last time being May 2013, which was nine months ago. And I don’t even remember when was the last time I actually wrote a post. Why? I guess I simply no longer felt the urge to come back.
When I logged onto Tumblr, instead of browsing my feed like I usually do, I chose to review my archive.
I was face palming myself the entire time going though all my pointless posts, rants and etc. Wow, I was so embarrassing. At the same time, there were a lot of moments when I smiled as well. It was exactly like going through a yearbook. My thoughts were soon filled with past memories and nostalgia.
I’ve come an extremely long way from who I was five years ago (half a decade!), when I created this Tumblr, three years ago when I graduated and even last year.
College forced me to grow up quickly. Thankfully, I’m not as naive, embarrassing and plainly immature as I was back then. However, in a lot of ways, I’m still as flawed as I was back then but at least I still continue to strive on bettering myself. As I’ve always said in the past, “I’m forever a work in progress.”
Before writing this, I was seriously contemplating on deleting my Tumblr out of the embarrassment I felt from all the naivety I displayed throughout the past few years in my posts and reblogs. But why should I? It’s apart of growing up. You live and learn. I’ve decided to keep it for sentimental value as a yearbook of sorts. It’s nice to refer back to and just reminisce. It reminded me how much I’ve grown as an individual, physically, mentally and emotionally.
This is probably going to be a one-off post, kinda like the Destiny’s Child and *NSYNC reunions last year. I don’t know if I’ll ever return to Tumblr and reblog and/or post but isn’t that what makes life exciting?
The unknown, the infinite possibilities of change, moving on.
Thank you Tumblr for having been that outlet of self-expression and documentation for me.
There’s this man I know from school, and I love love love having conversations with him. A few weeks back, he told me several stories of his travels, and it just made me want to travel even more. That’s everyone’s dream though, right? To travel. He told me to make it a reality.
He was in the…